Feeling like Carrie Bradshaw over here, writing away. Anyone liking the Sex and the City reboot? Anywho, it’s been a while since I’ve been on here, talking to you all and I honestly really miss it. Well, a lot has happened since my last post; I got married, and my mom passed away. I know dark stuff. What can I say, life has not been the same since and I’ve been struggling and trying to move forward. The reality is, there’s no rule book when it comes to grief. It comes in waves. Some days are better than others and it’s just a new emotion for me. Anyone else feel the same way?
To give you a little back story about my mom, she was diagnosed with stage 4 gastric cancer back in February. Can’t believe that it will be a whole year next month! Once finding out, we tried everything we could but it was just too late for her. I took the time off (which is why I’ve been m.i.a on here and on social) to care for my mom and spend the last couple of months I had with her. Looking back, I’m so happy I was able to do that. I’ll be honest, it’s been hard. I stopped working out, stopped juicing, I took time off from work, blogging, etc., you name it. The sucky thing is, no one prepares you for the grief that comes with loss. It’s just something we all have to experience to understand it. I’ve been in this dark hole that I haven’t been able to get out of. Luckily, I have a great support system that has been with me through all of it. My husband has been amazing and I don’t know what I’d do without him.
I’m learning to be gentle with myself and understanding that even as I move forward in life, that I will probably have my moments where I’m a complete mess, and thats okay. However, with the new year here, I want to recenter all my energy into my goals and career. In between all that, I’ve been refocusing on my health, fitness, getting back into social media, real estate and my mental health. I hired a coach through Tony Robbins and I’m really glad I did. We’ve been focusing a lot on goal setting – something I’m really excited to be working towards!
HERE IS MY VISION BOARD FOR 2022
One of my main goals is to be more present on here, and on all my other social media platforms. Looking into hiring a web designer to help revamp my blog, to provide a better user experience. So much to do but I’m really hopeful and excited for this new journey.
Enough about me though, how are you all? I can’t wait to reconnect. In the meantime, let me know if there’s anything you’d like to see from me. I would love to know.